I’m filled with emptiness. I’m laughing, talking, eating,
sleeping, writing, but that’s all I do. I have nothing to look forward to, I
feel like I’m losing my best friend and I try not to be sad about it. I try so
hard, my heart cannot take it. I know I will never lose him, but I can’t have
him too. He is there, but almost never here. I want to feel like I matter, like
I mattered before. I want to matter to me. I want to know who I am. I want to
fall asleep and dream of a better life, and never wake up. I think I’m losing myself.
I want to know what it feels like to be a stronger person.
"I know I will never lose him, but I can’t have him too." -- Aww, I know how painful this is. :-(
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry that you have to feel this way, dear. <3 hugs <3
~Irene
I don't know if I have ever related to a post on blogger as much as I understand this. I hope it all works out for you.
ReplyDeleteNothing scares me more than feeling as if nothing really matters. I'd rather break into a thousand little pieces than be numb like that.
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keep strong
ReplyDeletesending lots of love xx
How are you hon?
ReplyDeleteHope things are well, much love to you xx
or realizing yourself?
ReplyDeleteI believe the phase after a beautiful relationship is that of discovering oneself, beyond a referential definition, that is the true definition.
ReplyDeleteWow. This is so stunning and real. I could feel your loss in the pit of my stomach. Beautiful writing.
ReplyDeleteSweet Apple Lifestyle
Been there, done that. The biggest mistake I did was to push away those who still cared at that dark time.
ReplyDeleteTake care hon. It'll be okay x
Hopelessly Hopeful
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i know exactly what you mean. i'm beginning to feel like that myself. hang in there, sweetie, you're stronger than you think, x
ReplyDeleteTo be where you are right now is strength. You are strong even though life tries to make things hard.
ReplyDeleteI'm sure this phase has passed.. Hope you will return soon..
ReplyDeleteCheers!
Some people are destined to meet for a while and not to stay with you forever.The sooner you realize it the better you can cop with this this depression.
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