Contradictions and Love.

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There are days when I doubt my principles. Perhaps my take on life is a little too contemporary to accede or worse, just selfish.

Insomnia visits me like an old friend, on a night where I need that sweet little escape from reality and all its nuances.

I look at KS and serenity shows on his beautiful slumbering face. On this night, overwhelmed with emotions, I had told him that the only ‘unbecoming’ thing I did to my Parents was being in his bed.

‘But you’re going to be my wife someday’, was his honest consolation.

I believed him. I have believed in everything that he has ever proclaimed to me for 61 months now and I haven’t been disappointed yet. Touchwood.

There are days when I feel like I have let everyone down. They say to follow your heart, but what if the heart wants the dangerous bit?

I stayed off the drinks last night. It’s not the hardest thing in the world for me but my Mother would’ve been proud to know!!

Sometimes I do these little insignificant things that are usually expected of me, merely to feel safe and guarded within the integrities of my upbringing.

It’s my way of balancing all the defiance’s that I’ve gotten myself into, for the Love of LOVE.