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31.10.12

Hopes underneath the litle lies.

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Tonight I’ll be talking to my Father about the vacation that I’m planning on going with KS and his brother. I need his cash and he is not likely to send me off with two boys that are ‘bad influence’. I need a credible excuse (read lie) to deliver, and I'm praying that he doesn’t ask for too many details, he isn’t all that gullible of a parent. So also not my Mother. After that I need to tell Ph and I’m apprehensive about her reaction. She knows about KS and I and pretends like she doesn’t. Because she wants me to believe that she trusts me. After I told her we were only friends and she stopped questioning. Even when there have been numerous instances where she has got a whiff of our liaison. Like one morning she realized I wasn’t home when I had sneaked out to spend the night with Him on the eve of his 21st birthday. It's like we are both waiting for an intervention of some kind, meanwhile faking everything till we get there. A small part of me wishes for her to she ask me just one more time so that I can tell her the truth, of the magnitude of his existence in my life. While the other prominent part is not prepared for any speed bump. Not Yet. And perhaps lying is easier than the possibilities of having being told that this Love is a mistake. My heart wouldn't be able to bear it. You would know.

12 comments:

  1. Love can never be a mistake. It can never be good, never bad. Love is Love. There is absolutely no other way to put it.

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  2. take care of your heart, dear. once it is in that position, it becomes too fragile ❤

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  5. thank you! good luck, hope your parents will let you go. :)) x

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  9. Hope your parents let you go on the holiday without much fuss...I hate having to lie about things too...even if I end up lying for good, it makes me feel terribly guilty afterwards especially if the lie was directed towards my parents.
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  10. Thanks for your visit!

    Tough situation... I think we have all been there at one time, tell your parents or don't. So tricky. I hope you were able to figure out what to do and feel good about the result. It's your life and you are the one who has to live with your choices, no one else.

    Take care!

    Alexis

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